Time to reorganize my life

My previous life

I have to admit that the past few years were all about my weight and my health. I won’t lie. It was my almost obsession. At first, it was all about different diets and then the surgery. The next step was, logically, the aftermath and all the changes I had to make to make it through and survive the changing body and the challenges that were tied to all that.

It was a whole process. When I see my journal and diary from three years back, I am smiling. I am not that girl anymore. I changed beyond recognition. And not only physically. I had to become a different person if I wanted a different life. I underwent a transformation I never even dreamed about. That is for sure. I was always thinking that I would X when I would lose weight.  It is time to reorganize my life.

The breaking point – I am healthy

Now it is official. I am at a healthy weight. I did it! I lost 37 kilos altogether. Well, it may not seem that much, given that I underwent the surgery. But I can tell you that the change is incredible. I went from size 48, which is some XXL, to size 38, which equals to S. I never thought it was real but it is true that every kilo you lose, it means 1 cm in the waist. I measured my old belts… and it is exactly like that.

The funny part is that my weight started to move again after almost a year. So let’s see where it will lead me. It is not a conscious action anymore, most likely I am reaping the fruits of my newly acquired good habits. I like it, I have to admit. So it is likely I will lose a little more.

What is important is the fact that I am completely healthy, I don’t have any excess weight and I am maintaining my new good weight. And it means that I am closing a big chapter of my life. I am not the fat girl anymore. Haha, tell it to my head. It knows how to play amazing games with me. But from the outside in, I look like a normal healthy person, so it is the best time to start acting as such.

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I am starting a new chapter

I need to specify here, my healthy life. This is the second opportunity I was given thanks to the bariatric surgery. A thing I will never be grateful for enough. My body under construction is finished, my head is mostly ok with it. Yes, sometimes it plays funny games with me, so I have to consciously stop it and remind myself that I am not that anymore. My new me is here. And it is here to stay.

So now what? I was always telling myself that when I am slim and healthy, I will… whatever you can imagine, think of, or decide. The time has come. So it is up to me to think what I will do now. What my new life will look like. I can do anything I want. I have no limitations anymore. I probably can’t be an astronaut, but I don’t want it anyway.

Things that are here to stay

What is crystal clear to me is the fact that I will stick to my diet and exercise routine no matter what. It is the basis of my future success. These things will never go away from my agenda. Ever! I won’t allow myself to start slacking. The way back would be very short and pretty fast. I have to admit that living in this smaller and healthier body has its perks. I like it. It is all so much easier.
To get here, I had to learn so many things, I had to identify what was not serving me and was right away detrimental to my progress and change. I had to figure out things, sometimes through trial and error, and sometimes the consequences of my decisions were not nice altogether. I know now better, so I am not likely to repeat my old mistakes, I already learned.

I am also finishing my psychology degree, so I was using the knowledge from there in my process. Sometimes it worked, sometimes I would adjust a few things here and there, and sometimes I was left with more questions than answers. But altogether it served me pretty well and I have to say it served me as a good source of information and background reassurance of the things I was trying to implement in my own life.

Everything is changing

Still, nothing in life is permanent. We are all subjected to change. It is not only us, but everything around us keeps changing. And it is a very fast pace. So it is only up to us if we can keep ourselves up-to-date and keep changing the same fast as the environment we live in. Yes, I have lost the weight, but it can also change pretty fast. I can go back to having some extra weight, I can go back to being sick, anything can happen.

I would like to keep the good outcome of the past chapter and build a better future on that. My new habits are still somewhat fragile. Not the same as the first months, but still, my bad habits are only sleeping and they can wake up the moment when I least need that. I am aware of that. I keep working on burying them. The silly part is that bad habits are only dormant, they are unlikely to fade away altogether and forever.

My new life under construction

It is time to start thinking about my new life. Life after losing the excess weight. Part of me will still be focusing on maintaining this healthy weight, it is clear and it will never change. I have to keep working on making my habits around food better and more stable. I will keep exploring the new possibilities and recipes I have never tried before. This is how keeping healthy eating is possible and not boring.

The rest of the things can be anything I want and like. Now I have the capacity and mental space to start adding slowly more things. Maybe I will learn a new language. I have two that I would like to add to my portfolio and get to an advanced level. I have already 4 at the C1 level or above, so why not another one? It sounds like a challenge to me 😀

I was also thinking about joining a sports club. I have a sport that I have been interested in for a long time, but my weight was not allowing me to engage in it. So I guess it is a good time to at least try it. Or I will fall in love, or I will get it that it is not for me. Who knows? Anything can happen and I can surprise myself.

Life is full of possibilities

Once you have your health back, you see things from a very different perspective. You are more open to new things. You are willing to experiment and try new things. How about some challenges? I am all for it 😀

It seems to me this is going to be a ride 😀 It took me 30 long months to get here. And I will not mess things up. If it depends on me, I am sure I will make it work and I will keep pushing. Now I can do anything. It sounds to me like a good start to my future. I  can reorganize my life to become exactly what I want it to be.